So I’m still working on this blogging thing… I’ve had this thought in my head for the past few days but I’m just not great about sitting down and sending it out to the web… But I was inspired by my gf’s post and decided it’s time to get serious about blogging! ok so maybe not… but at least this is a start…
So yesterday morning I spent some time with a brother in the Lord to kind of vent about what has been going on over the past few weeks. See we usually get together for racquetball every week so we can usually just update each other in between serves… but due to my recently acquired busy schedule we had to resort to 
a mandate… get it? man-date? ok moving on… we spent some time talking about our Christmas experiences and how the day played out and then we got to business. We talked for a good bit and somewhere in the middle I made a comment that with my new busy schedule I find i harder and harder to find time to spend with God… I know… Christianity 101 discusses putting God first and making Him a priority above all else but believe it or not I still struggle with this?! At that moment I was thinking of how I could give Jesus a little larger piece of the pie in my life…I know… I’m so noble…
here comes a tangent but stick with me… we’re taking the scenic route…
So I left coffee… still with that though lingering of how busy I am and yet knowing that I need to make more time for my Savior. You see I had an epiphany… It arose from a truth my friend stated. He said that there are certain things in life that are more important than your career or money or whatever this world is shoving in your face… a truth my gf reminds me of many times. He mentioned God, family, wife and memories among others. And so I thought for a moment… I pictured myself laying on a hospital bed… old… with many wrinkles… aware of my mortality approaching. At this moment in my future what is the most important thing to me? What are my thoughts filled with… what is on my mind? I can’t tell you when that day is or what causes it to come but I can tell you that many of the things I’m pursuing daily will not even come close to crossing my mind on that day. And so I asked myself, if it’s not gonna matter on that day then should it matter now? Now that’s not fair… its a loaded question. But it was asked and so it needs to be answered. I don’t let myself go that easily.
So back to my original thought… more pie for Jesus.
I began realizing the answer to the question about what should be important couldn’t be answered with my current way of looking at life… as a pie with each piece designated for different areas in my life. You see there are things I do now, such as college, that I probably won’t care about when I’m dying and yet it is what help me provide for my future family, something I will care about at my last breath. And so how does everything fit? Answer: Gingerbread 
house. Life isn’t just a pie where you separate your time an energy into school, family, God, etc. Its a gingerbread house that needs a foundation (Jesus) and walls (authority and rules). You see in a Gingerbread house you can have an education room, a family room, an entertainment room, any room your life calls for. But none of the rooms can exist without the foundation. Some of the rooms will build upon others and others will change from the bedroom to the study when the kids move out.
I know this may not mean much to many but looking at my life in this way helps me understand how God isn’t only first, He’s EVERYTHING. Without Him the structure of my life would crumble. No room could stand. So I move forward with my life not just trying to answer the question of how can I make more time for God but also how can I make God the foundation in this area of my life?
Matthew 7:24-27
Therefore whosoever heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them, I will liken him unto a wise man, which built his house upon a rock: And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock. And every one that heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man, which built his house upon the sand: And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell: and great was the fall of it.
t I was also very excited to have an opportunity to work for such an amazing company. Val and Deanna and I spent our last few months together living out a few last adventures. I had spent the last few months getting closer and closer to God and was very excited about the new adventure facing me but I had no idea what to expect. I was leaving the house I grew up in located in NY to go work for a company with 6,000+ employees on site located 2,000 miles away in New Mexico. For those of you who don’t know New Mexico is in fact one of the contiguous states and I did not need a passport to live there 
. I was leaving everything and everyone I knew to go to a place where I didn’t know a single person. I didn’t know what would happen when I got there… for all I knew it could have been 6 months of wakign up, going to work, and coming home to sleep through lonelyness. But before I went the Lord gave me a vision and a peace. He gave me hope in the example of Moses in the dessert. He encouraged me that a season in the dessert alone with Him could be life changing and would be neccesary for the plans he had for me. He also gave me a vision of a spiritual fire starting in New Mexico which filled my heart with excitement. It wasn’t quite that easy though. Along with a vision for my future in NM the Lord also gave me a vision for my future with Deanna. So this became a huge step of faith for me. When I took the job offer from Intel I already knew that Deanna and I were supposed to be together one day. So I’m faced with one of the most crucial trials in my life… Do I take the job at Intel in NM where I feel God is callign me or do I stay in NY with the girl I feel God has brought to me? It almost felt like a contradiction… how could God bring both these things to me? was this a trial where I was supposed to choose love over career? was I supposed to choose college over relationship? No… I was supposed to choose God over both. As I spend more time with Him He showed me that both were for me… I was supposed to be with Deanna… but not yet… right now I was called to be in NM. So that season with Deanna would have to wait to begin… and boy was that diffacult. So this brings me to about December 2006…
